Life Pt. 1.

Alright, so I thought about it and have decided to write an actual blog. This will probably be a 2 part series or more, hence the title. So moving forward.

Warning: Thoughts may not be correctly worded right or sencted right due to excessive thoughts on this issue.

Alright well I'll start this series with something that has been bothering me for about 4 years now. Four years ago, I met this girl at a campground. We would spend 1 week together, and still today, was the best week of my life. She was the first girl that I actually liked and she liked me back. How perfect is that? Go camping, meet a lovely girl, you like her, she likes you, perfect isnt it? Nope. The problem was she lived/lives around 120 miles away. Relationship wouldn't work and expecially at that current age of 13. Well that was 4 years ago, and yet I still find myself having these feelings. I see her once a year if that, I talk to her occasionally online, and rarely on the phone, yet I have these feelings? I don't understand it all. I don't understand why fate or w/e put her so far away, I don't understand why I still have these feelings, it all seems like a stupid game. I have had 2 girlfriends since, and both we're failures. Yet theres a perfect one thats just out of reach. It just seems like I have absoloutly no luck down here and I'm constantly reminded that I have some luck but I just cant take advantage of that opportunity because it's to far away.. Im not sure if this is making any sence right now but bear with it. I know there is no real good reason to keep these feelings, I mean really for what reason should I even have these feelings. Its been 4 years. She lives to far away, I doubt she feels the same way anymore, I just dont understand why. Gahh. That is all for now.